The Feels
As I reflect on all that has happened this year, I have to say that I’m most grateful for my family, both biological and chosen. I have to stop and wonder, how did I get so blessed? Especially when there were several things that could have taken me out. To stay down after each set back though would have been the easier choice, but God bless my higher self for always pushing me to strive for more for myself.
As a researcher, and philosopher (still odd for me to say that I’m a Doctor, but I AM) naturally I am a huge fan of theory and I love to learn, which is the brighter side to life. I’m constantly observing people, and humans, even as an actor to try find the heart of the matter in any given situation. Perhaps that makes me intense, but then again who wants surface? Certainly, not me. Which brings me to this “cliche”, I guess what all the greats I look up to, Aristotle, Plato, Carl Jung suggest about life is true, God/”the universe” is always leading you home. Home to the one you build within yourself, home to the you, you love.
Its never been easy for me, death came for my family early on in life and it’s taken me nearly my entire lifetime to recover, yet its also given me many things. Did I make mistakes? Absolutely. But I owned them. Am I perfect? No, I’d be the first one to tell you that, but I am so close it’s scary (obvious humor). Perhaps the greatest lesson it gave me is to appreciate life. ALL of it.
If I’d only known then what I new now…but then again, I may never have learned it at all. While this year has been extremely difficult to navigate as a Latina, (ahem) excuse me, a Mexican-American woman, it is the year I needed. A year to let go of so many things that no longer serve me, and a year to recognize the moments life gave me to come up higher, that I cannot wait to see what 2026 has in store.
I’m brought to tears as I write this, mostly because throughout this year and my life, I would have never made it through without my family. My mom, my brothers, extended family and most of all my friends. The people that love me for me, in spite of all my imperfections. The ones who I GET TO journey with through all of life’s stages. This holiday season, they are all the gifts I need. I love them and I love life, and I can only hope that they know how much they mean to me. In fact, it’s a promise I made to myself when I was that kid growing up in South Texas, to always spread love and mean it.
Ah love is the best feel in the world, and this December is certainly becoming one to remember. “People who need people are the luckiest people in the world” and I AM the luckiest gal in the world.
